AUTHOR: Scott G DATE: 7:13:00 PM ----- BODY:

Feeling better now...

Now that I've slept some (about 5 hours), I feel better. Deb went to work for 7-11 PM and I'm home relaxing. I did my time today. I would've gone out to play basketball as planned, but it was raining really hard this morning. The plans to leave on Sunday instead of Monday for Florida aren't happening now. Chris' girlfriend Sandy doesn't have an ATM card so she has to access her money for the trip when it's open. By the time he got a chance to talk to her, the bank was closed. I don't know if her bank is closed on Sunday or what, but I guess it's going to be Monday. Deb's trying to talk me into leaving at some odd time in the early day Monday, to get there at 1 AM or so. I'm against it and I'm sure we'll stick to the 7 PM idea as planned. I really don't have much to say, but I suppose I can address the "not getting along with my brother" that I mentioned was my reason for deleting the prior blog. You see.. this is what I can tell you about it. It all started when he came to visit and said a few things that pissed me off. I didn't say anything about any of it because it was easier not to. When he got back home and we were talking on the phone we got into a very heated discussion. Normally I take a verbal beating when in a "heated discussion" with him, but this time I got angry and said all that was on my mind. I mentioned that I didn't like his comment reguarding my future wife/marriage. Deb is very quiet with my family (Mother & Brother) because she doesn't see or talk to either of them often, doesn't have much to say, and is an overall quiet person. Because of this, my brother said that he didn't think my marriage would last. That comment in itself was a hard slap in the face. Talking about my marriage not lasting weeks before I get married? No sir. So in turn I told him what I thought about his marriage. That he was an angry, hot tempered ass to his wife and I didn't think that was a good thing at all. I don't remember all of what I said, but he argued every point I made and I meant every word. I wasn't making things up and I sure as hell wasn't sugar-coating a thing. I'm not a mean person by any measure, but if you open the floodgates, expect a flood. So in the middle of our angry "heated discussion" he abruptly says he doesn't want to talk to me anymore and hung up on me. This from someone who had an answer for every point I made. Every point I made was false, yet true enough to upset him to that point. I learned something that day. That if I try hard enough, I can get my point across to him, and I did. After that I see on my site logs that he visited my site 1-3 times a day every day for a week or two. He knew I had a blog and he kept up with it. He was expecting something about him and I didn't update the blog. Then one day, I deleted it all together and he stopped going to my site. Now I brought it back and he may very well decide to check back and lookie lookie.. there IS something about him. Enjoy! I'm not going to call him, I don't even know his number. I called him with my cell and since I deleted the number I don't know it. Calling would be the same as admitting fault or saying sorry for something and I have nothing to say sorry for. Even if he called today and apologized, I wouldn't. If there's one thing I've learned in life, don't say you're sorry just to appease people. If you're not sorry, don't say it. Along I go in my everyday life, getting closer to my "soon to be failed" marriage according to my lovely family member. I know in the long run that my marriage will be the best thing I've ever done. I know my Mom and Deb will get closer, because they're both great women. There's nothing stopping this from becoming everything I think it'll be. Sure we have squabbles and misunderstandings. I'm sure I'll blow a thousand things up in this blog before it's all said and done, but that's just me. I'm dramatic at times. I'd rather gripe to myself and keep my distance temporarily with Deb than yell at her and put her down. I like the way things are and they'll only get better as they go along. I'm really out of things to say, so until next time.. buh bye.. --------