AUTHOR: Scott G DATE: 4:34:00 PM ----- BODY:

Random thoughts (as usual)...

Yesterday was a decent day, it was dead at work. One thing stands out in my mind. The world likes to make me think I'm going crazy sometimes. For whatever reason Deb says things that make me look stupid in front of my friend Jaime. I don't know if this is to make herself look better or to impress him, but it bothers me. Jaime and Deb get along fine, so he tries to stay out by acting like nothing was said. So of course I'm going crazy. Deb was leaving at 8 and Jaime said "Why don't we have Deb run and get us food?" so we ask and we're both ordering different things. She goes and says "He always orders a bunch of things, this and that and that.." I write down a list of 2 or 3 things (small things off a 99 cent menu) and she says "See.. he's writing a whole long list.." I don't know what this will accomplish for her, but it makes me look like a pig and just makes me look fussy (when I'm not). Jaime said "I don't know? It was off a 99 cent menu.." So I guess he agreed with me this time, but usually I end up looking crazy. Argh! She's going to have to stop that. Other than that, things were good. We went out and played pool with Jaime and his girlfriend Karen. It was fun.. the bar was closing up and we took off. She left for work at 2:30 and I start at 6:30, so I have a little while. Brian's in Florida now, I hope he has fun. His girlfriend is crazy. She does everything in her power to make him miserable but he's too weak to find someone else so he stays with her. That's a trait of a few other friends. Well.. a few friends I don't talk to much anymore. Jay and Moriah. They're together because neither has the nerve to find someone else. Some people can't stand the thought of being alone. Often times being with someone they're not happy with is better than being alone. I was alone all my life with the exception of a couple relationships. When I sit back and look at my young life, it's amazing. I go all of my young adult life without a girlfriend (except senior year of high school), and then I'm married at age 22. This is not a bad thing, because I'm happy with the choices I've made. The part that makes me think is that this all came from nothing. Other guys date a lot of girls and end up getting married to one of them. I never dated much at all, yet I'm still married before all of my friends. Jay and Moriah are the next to get married. Unless Jay and I start hanging out more often, I can't see myself going to that wedding. They acted like they wanted to go to mine, but they didn't really care. Ah well.. true friends are easy to tell. I'm sitting here listening to "All Along the Watchtower" by Jimi Hendrix, good song. I've run into a dead end in my thoughts, so until next time... --------