AUTHOR: Scott G DATE: 12:51:00 AM ----- BODY:

Good news, Bad news

Today my Mom offered to give Deb and I $450 to spend for a long awaited honeymoon. We're going to Bar Harbor, Maine. It should be a good trip, but I've gone from thinking about that trip to new thoughts. More like frustrations actually. Deb is all mad at me tonight because she's getting over her period and I don't want to have sex. The way it is in our relationship lately is if I touch her I get smacked and told "stop it!" but when she wants sex, she wants it. Well I'm stubborn and we don't have sex. I don't need sex all the time, I don't want sex all the time, and so we don't have it all the time. The fact that every time I touch her she gets angry with me makes me want to have it even less. I can honestly say that if this weren't the case I'd "come around" and want to have sex more often. If I tell my friends just that they'd say "well tell her that!" and I have. I've told her before "you smack me when I want to touch you, but when you want to touch me I'm supposed to just do what you want?". I guess most guys won't understand my situation, but it's different than most. I like sex with her just fine, but it's a matter of respect and fair play. You don't get it your way if I don't get things mine. When she starts letting me start things we'll be better off. Now that I'm thinking, I'll bet she feels she has to start it every time. She doesn't. Not to mention the iffy fact that she wants a child NOW (better yet.. you could say she wants one yesterday and apply it to every day) and I don't. We have rent, a new car, and a bunch of other bills and I don't want to raise my kid in poverty for their first 5 years of life. I don't want to accept welfare if I can avoid it and I can, by waiting to have a child. I'm just trying to do what's right for us. We're saying "oh we can't go out to eat, we don't have the money", well what about diapers, strollers, car seats, formula, bottles, toys, wipes, crib, and all the other things they need? Where will that money come from? Ok, now I'm going to focus on happier things. We're finally getting our honeymoon 4 1/2 months later. It's going to be great to go somewhere, have things to do, have the time off, and have the money. We never could get all those together. We'd get time off, but have nowhere to go and very little money. We'd find ourselves thinking of where to go that doesn't lead us to a toll highway, and planning huge detour routes around paying tolls. Only another 75 miles, we save $3 on tolls and spend more on gas. The bottom line is that we're going to pay the tolls. We're going to a great spot in Maine that is very beautiful. We could take "route 1 to route 202 to route 3 to route 2" or we could just blow through on the highway. I choose convenience. Bar Harbor is tremendous from the pictures I see and the stories I hear from people. It's on Mount Desert Island which also is made up almost entirely of Acadia National Forest. That place seems so simple yet exciting. I've never been to a National Forest, an island, a bay, or a cove. I'd like to go whale watching, take a boat trip somewhere, or do something else. The Acadia National Forest has this one road going all the way around and you can drive it and see various sites along the way. It's apparently the "featured road" to this place. It takes you right where you want to go. Aside from the forest there's the city of Bar Harbor, we're staying just north a mile or so from all the restaurants and businesses. I want to take this part in as well. I can see one day in the city and the other three or four in Acadia. It just might take that many days to see what there is to see. Now trying to "tour" the area without being a "tourist" will be difficult. I've seen beautiful pictures and I'd like to try and take some myself. To tell you the truth my trip to Quabbin Reservoir here in Mass has me thinking I can take better pictures of Bar Harbor than I see online. I might just have to try. I'm going to try and build up as much information as I can and try to do it all on our own and avoid being the typical uninformed tourist. We started off right by finding a $66 a night place around a bunch of $150 a night places. It might be small, it might not be fancy, but it'll allow us to do a lot more. It's a cottage in Bar Harbor, no hotel we have to enter through a lobby to get to our room. We get in our cottage as if it were our own little house. I'm really going to enjoy it. I can't wait. Ok, aside from that I've finally chosen my Linux distribution for good. At least the one I feel is worth paying for. I paid $20 for a license code to get special support and software from the company. Up until I found Lycoris Linux I never thought any "distro" was worth my money. Now I feel that to help these people make the software better they need money and I like it enough to pay for it. I'm using it now, aren't I? It's a little more work than Windows, and it means sacrificing a few programs that are Windows specific (Streets & Trips) but it's well worth it. I'll switch over to the Windows part for the few programs I need. Ok.. I've really typed a lot and I'm done. until next time... --------