AUTHOR: Scott G DATE: 12:41:00 PM ----- BODY:

Going crazy waiting for the phone to ring...

Today is the day we're supposed to hear back from the mortgage company about our loan application. I've put so much on this and I'm driving myself crazy. We did all the paperwork the week before Thanksgiving and were told we'd hear back on the Monday after it. I have today off and part of me wants to call her and see what's going on. That's only part of me though, the rest of me is too scared to find out. I get into this mental game with myself saying "If she's not calling it could be good news.." then I turn it around and think it might be bad news. The moral of the story is: don't get your hopes up! In the past it's helped if I got my hopes down. That way if it was negative as I thought I'd be expecting it, and I'd be surprised if it was positive. I can't psyche myself out this time. I can't stop thinking and dreaming about this. Things we'd do when we got our own house. Reasons keep popping up pointing to why we need it. Loud running water in the apartment one thin wall from us, banging around us, loud music, doors slamming, and people yelling. I've had to call the cops on people downstairs twice. They have teenagers with babies and issues with the baby's fathers. How do I know? I hear the baby's father outside yelling that he wants to see his kid. If we had our house we'd slowly build it up to be the perfect house. We'd hook up some speakers in the living room to watch movies, hook up the internet in multiple places, decorate it for holidays, and take great care of it. When I was a kid I hated shoveling snow and mowing the lawn. It was my Mom's house, this will be my house. My lawn, my snow in my driveway, and my sidewalk I'm clearing off so people can walk past MY house. We've already got a jab at our previous realtor/lender planned if this works out. They weren't very helpful so we plan to send them a picture of our house and a note with a sarcastic comment saying "Thanks a lot for helping us.." It would be great to show them we did it, without them. Ok, I'm getting all caught up in this and I'm going to stop.. until next time... --------