AUTHOR: Scott G DATE: 9:55:00 PM ----- BODY:

Not satisfied yet..

Ok.. I went and got my cheesy uniform for this security place and found a few things out that were not clear the first day. The way it usually is.. you get one of their security cars with flashing lights and patrol an area. I was told I'd be in a car. In a way I will be. My own car. Found this out today. No lights, nothing on my car. Not that I need the lights or any of that, but I had no idea I'd be using my own car (read: my own gas out of my own empty pockets). Because of this and a few other inconsistencies I'm still actively seeking the ever elusive "decent full time job". Or at least a less bullshit part time one. I'll do this crappy job for a few days a week for extra money, but not for 40 hours. Other than that there really is no news to share. The American League won the All-Star game so if my Yankees make it to the World Series they will have home field advantage. Last night while laying in bed I began to think about everything (bills, work, etc..) and started having something I think was related to a panic attack. I just got really flustered and short of breath, unable to calm down. I calmed myself down and haven't mentioned it to Deb yet. Haven't had time. Rushed straight to work after I went to the security place and she's working now. I hope I don't have anything like a panic attack during the day. I don't want these problems on top of everything else. I'm happy enough.. really.. no prozac needed. :) Anyway.. I'm going to end this and climb a wall or something.. since I'm going nutso.. until tomorrow.. --------