AUTHOR: Scott G DATE: 7:56:00 PM ----- BODY:

You feel fine? Try to find a job!

I know it can be hard to find a job. I know this from experience, but it's really hard when you're not looking. Deb feels better now and there's no law against someone working when they're a few weeks pregnant. No, not several months. She's not showing and she's in good physical condition. She is not bedridden (unless she chooses to be) and she can help our situation greatly if she wants to. I'm her husband and I love her, but I cannot make her do anything. If we can't afford a better crib, stroller, diapers, bottles, clothes, car seat, or anything else it will be because I didn't find a better paying job. No one will look at the fact that she sits home all day doing nothing. She acts as if she has no desire to work or help out at all. I care about her well being as much if not more than anyone, but I'm not asking her to go work in a factory. Not even full time. Just apply for a few part time cashier jobs. That's all. Every penny counts and gets our child more than we otherwise might not be able to afford. If I wasn't giving 100% of myself I would want someone to snap me out of it. I know she feels sick sometimes and not sick other times, but I think it's worth a try. For our child. I'm just very upset about this and it seems like I'm the only one seeing it. As soon as we found out she was pregnant Deb's Mom accepted that as a reason not to work. She even bought puzzles for her to do!!! She's fucking endorsing all of this, all while I'm working to pay off credit cards in the thousands (stuff for both of us), money we owe her Mom (who's not helping!), and to afford our own place for our baby! I've always had a fear of bringing a baby into this world without being able to provide for it. These fears are being realized and are most likely less than 8 months from becoming my life. Imagine that.. your worst fears becoming reality? My child will be supported by my Mother in law because I can't ever get to the point where I can do it alone. Maybe that's what they want? It's not what I want. If I could move closer to work I could get a second job, but with travel time I don't have enough hours in the day for two jobs. It's just so frustrating and I feel so helpless. Until tomorrow.. --------