AUTHOR: Scott G
DATE: 8:53:00 PM
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Springfield, MA - 18th most dangerous city
According to a report released by a group called Morgan Quitno our city is in the top 25 most dangerous cities list. Luckily we finished one spot better than Compton so we're not quite up to gangster status yet. This information sure does not make me feel great about raising my daughter here. If my reasons for wanting to go back to Florida weren't enough already then I can add one to the list.
As evidenced by the comments to my last post we've been talking to Deb's friend about going back down there. Erica has been very helpful in giving suggestions for how we can make it happen. Unfortunately having gone through it already I know it is much more difficult than others may think. It seems that wanting something may not be enough to make it happen. I can apply for a million jobs in FL, but I can't interview for any. The costs of moving down there and setting up residence is beyond the realm of possibilities right now. I guess I'm just looking for some magical solution that isn't there.
All I really want is to be happy. I know it'll be hot down in Florida, but no more hot in the summer than it is cold here in the winter. You don't see people out frolicking in the streets when it's well below zero here just as you wouldn't in 110 degree weather there. I feel like I've said all of this in here or to myself before. In fact I know I have. I guess it's just written justification for my feelings. Last time we moved down into her Mom's house (wrong move) and things just went wrong. We'll have to do it right this time. It may take time because we have no help, but if we want it bad enough we can make it happen.
I can technically transfer from my current position to another store in FL after I've been working it for six months. That is still four months away. I guess I need to be patient, but I don't like waiting. When I reach a conclusion I like to just make it happen quickly. Soon our baby will be crawling but here she has nowhere safe to crawl and no kids to play with. Down there that is not the case. I have to stop writing because everything comes out looking the same, it's all I can think about. Until tomorrow..
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